My Sweet Sixteen

When I was younger, I used to dream about my sweet sixteen and all the people who were going to be there laughing and dancing in celebration. But, things changed, and I don`t know why. Anyway, I`m turning sixteen in a little over two months, and I have nothing to show for it. I`m exceptionally shy, and have only friends who are even more so than I. My true problem, however, is not the shyness that is keeping me from wanting my birthday to actually come, but the fact that I`m dying to have a party and know that I have no way of throwing one. While my friends are some of the nicest people one could know, I don`t want them to drag down my birthday with their unwillingness to join in with any kind of celebration I might propose. I fear that it is too late for me to "branch out," so to speak, and make more friends so that the memory of my so-called "sweet sixteen" doesn`t burn.