RE:

First of all I think you are on the wrong site to be saying all of this, second of all don`t use God as an excuse to try and "back up" all of your decisions trying to prove to other people that this is right for you, it`s just as bad as taking his name in vain! Why do you care so much what others think? I believe God does tell people things, but our hearts have to be in the right place for us to hear it. If you were really so much "in-tune" with God, you wouldn`t have had sex with so many guys so young in the first place. And I highly doubt that you and Brad will never be unhappy again. My boyfriend and I met when I was 15 and he was 19, that is quite an age difference and you know what?....we NEVER had sex until we had been together for 2 and 1/2 years. He waited for me to be ready, we were both virgins and I dont regret it being with him, although I do sometimes wish we would have waited until we were married. Now I am 19 and Chris and I are still together and planning on getting married sometime next year, but it has never been easy. Sex is such a special thing, we dont "overuse" it because we know we really should have waited in the first place. Both our parents are religious and my grandfather was a pastor and they raised us right. I have never been with another man and I plan to keep it that way. Even though I may marry my first, still doesn`t make it right and I do know that it is a sacred unity I should have saved for marriage.
If you really love God as much as you say you do, you`ll stop lying to yourself and get some help. And never depend on Brad, although you two may last it will NEVER be perfect with nothing but happy times!