My Fiancee Left Me!!! Help (sob)

Go after her. Dont just sit there. Go

I wish it were that easy. The reality is that she doesn`t want to be with me anymore. She has made up her mind, and told me quite bluntly that she never, ever wants to be with me again. I wish I could just go and sweep her off her feet in some romantic gesture, but it`s quite obvious that I would just make a fool of myself and get my heart broken even more.
I still love her, though. I can`t stop, it`s not going to ever go away. I don`t know what to do to cope, nothing seems to work. I just want to find a way to end the pain. I`m going nuts up here at Intel, trying to pay attention to all these crazy engineering tasks and take on new responsibilities. No one even knows that I`m totally devastated and suicidal. Even my friends that do know how I feel are powerless to help.

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NIN (excerpt from "gave up")
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Smashed up my sanity.
Smashed up integrity.
Smashed up what I believed in.
Smashed up what`s left of me.
Smashed up my everything.
Smashed up all that was true.
Gonna smash myself to pieces.
I don`t know what else to do.

If she is going to be so cruel as to leave you when money gets tight then she would have never stood by you in a marriage in the first place..I know it hurts we have all been there one time or another..The thing is you have to trust in God and know he is going to get you through this... God takes marriage very seriously and so she messed up by using that to play games with you.. You just need to get down on your knees and pray that God releases you of these feelings because it is not going to hurt forever it just feels like it is...You have got to keep you head up high and make her think you are not thinking twice about her.. I wish you the best of luck and I promise the pain will go away and what doesn`t kill you only makes you stronger...

I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
Goodbye.

Just to let you know i have been reading all your posts. I am contacting the administrator of this site to track down your ip address so that they can get your information and call the authorities to get you help. Good luck to you and I hope they get there in time.

Here are some words of advice--GET SOME HELP YOU NEED IT

Hi Ryan!

I am a 37 years old woman and would give the world to have someone like you to love me in that way. Let me tell you something even though it may seems hard at the moment that your fiancee left you just when you proposed, maybe God had something to do with it, maybe you deserve someone to love you back in the same way, just try to get some help dont stay at home thinking about it, go out have some fun and before you know it the pain will gradually fade. And that`s when you will realise that life is still beautiful, and there is that special someone maybe closer to you than you think. There is good and better, and you will get a BETTER WOMAN! just you wait and see!....

Ryan, don`t give up, just wait, one day at the time, you will survive, life will get better, I promise!
It is very hard now, I know, but cry out to God, He is faithful and will give you what you need to get through this.Grieve all you need! but don`t give up!

Ryan,
Are you doing ok?

Ryan,
Are you doing ok??

I hate myself for losing her. I hate myself and I want to die.
Please, god, just take me from this life. Release me.

Ryan, get help, I had to do it for a while, get a counselor or something like that, and open the Bible you have somewhere, read from it, it will give you peace.

Ryan is being dramatic, its been 4-5 months since the break up. I doubt there was a fiance. Hes just vying for attention.

Hi sweet if u want to talk email me

My suggestion to u is to take some time out for urself and figure u out. U seem like a good man and im more than sure there`s a women out there waiting for a man like u. She may have left u, and i trust me I know the pain ur feeling, but the truth may be that she could have been cheating on u. What woman just leaves a good man for no reason after their engaged and she gets the ring she wanted? She was just playing all along and realized u were serious after she got the ring, yall may have not been ment for eachother from the get go. God does thing for a reason. Instead of greiving over her, thank God that it was sooner than later, it could`ve been after yall were married and spent all kind of money.